See, I'm finding it hard to blog right now.. I always blog about the same thing. The same situation. The same person. And what's the point of writing if people have read it all before? What's the point of me writing the same things over and over and over again, if I've written it before? My life feels like a constant cycle.. I'm down and depressed and then something happens. I meet someone or I'm so focused on something else. Things are good, I catch myself not being guarded. Then things change. Either quickly or slowly, they change. And it leaves me here.. Wondering what I did wrong. Or what I may have done to ruin things. I put myself in to this 'mood' where I'm just saying "fml fml fml, why am I not good enough?" There I am again in that 'depression.' It happens so often and I'm sick of it. As soon as a good thing comes into my life, it leaves just as fast.. I want some stability in my life.