My #2 goal was to stop being so proud and fix our friendship
And to be honest, I've only thought about how it would be after everything was repared and better. I've pictured our friendship being exactly like it was before. I haven't really put any thought into how we were gonna fix things... I know it'll get better if we both try. I know you're pretty ticked about me always saying I want to talk and how I never do. I know you're tired of me saying I want to be 'friends' again. But, I've told you.. I am scared out of my mind to talk to you. I'm extremely afraid if I talk to you, you'll just push me aside. I'm afraid that you'll be acting like 'Why is she talking to me?' I'm scared because I don't know if you even want to be friends anymore. I know things haven't been the best in almost the past two years.. And I know it's been forever since we've actually 'been' friends. But I mean it this time.. I want things to be like they were before. I want to be able to call you one of my best friends again. I want to have those long talks again. I want to be able to walk home with you again. I want you te be comfortable enough in our friendship to come over and visit me again. I want to be able to talk to you whenever. I want everyone to know how close we are again. I miss everything about the old 'us.' And if things do work out this time, I want us to be even better than we were before. I'm going to really try this time. I'm committed this time. But I'm going to need your help too..